| So you are wondering if your life has any purpose or | | | | would be open to understanding my gift. |
| meaning at all? Why the heck are you here? Why | | | | I was hauled up in front of the various churches that I |
| have you gone through so much in your life? Or is this | | | | attended in my life and made an example of and |
| all just random chaos? | | | | ridiculed in front of the congregation for what I could |
| I asked myself these questions many times in my life, | | | | see. Because I was "evil" in their eyes. |
| and I still ask them today on behalf of my clients. | | | | What I could never understand was that they had |
| I asked my guide, Don, one day to explain to me about | | | | prophets of God, that saw people's futures and yet |
| this destiny vs chaos theory and why are we, humans, | | | | that was acceptable, but for me to be able to talk to |
| here? | | | | the pastor's deceased mother was purely evil. |
| His answer was simple and I feel the need to share it | | | | So I learnt to keep quiet and not to share my gift with |
| with you. | | | | people. I would still "counsel" people and tell them what |
| Before we come to this life, we design a map of our | | | | they needed to hear, but just not where the |
| lives. The easiest way to picture this is as a road map, | | | | information came from. |
| many roads leading to the same destination. | | | | So lesson learnt. This cycle does not repeat itself and |
| We come to this incarnation with a set design of what | | | | now that I am older and able to communicate with |
| we want to learn and achieve in this life to better our | | | | people more openly, this is not a challenge for me. |
| souls. | | | | My other lesson was to learn to be accepted for who |
| In other words, we have already chosen when we are | | | | I truly am, this was hard as I always wanted to be |
| going to get married, how many children we have and | | | | normal and to fit in. I married a man that could not |
| we have made contracts with all the people that | | | | accept me for who I was and I constantly moulded |
| come in and out of our lives. | | | | myself to what he wanted me to be. My lesson to |
| We set lessons for ourselves, whether it is to learn to | | | | learn to be myself. I learnt it whilst still married to him, |
| say no to an abusive lover, dealing with stress or | | | | and then he passed away, so I didn't have a chance to |
| growing up in a really rotten family. These we have all | | | | put it completely into action, but I still learnt it and I |
| chosen before we come here. | | | | surround myself today with people that love and |
| If you look back on your life you will see that there are | | | | accept me for who I am. Freak and all :) |
| certain cycles that you keep repeating. A classic | | | | But my point is this, we all go through things in our lives |
| example is with myself and my inability to accept my | | | | to help us to learn. We need to look at this earth as a |
| gift of seeing and communicating with the Spirit World. | | | | huge school and we are its students. |
| I could see Spirits from a very young age, my first | | | | My guide told me that our lives are like road maps, we |
| memory is seeing an Angel when I was two years old. | | | | can take many different routes to the same |
| Yet through out my life, I was told I was crazy, | | | | destination and on our different routes we encounter |
| delusional and should be locked up in the nearest | | | | stop streets, traffic lights, round about etc. They are |
| mental facility. I told so many people as I grew up what | | | | the same lessons that we need to learn, just on |
| I could do, from the church pastor to my teachers to | | | | different streets. |
| my friends and peers. | | | | There is no chaos in our lives, it is all a very well |
| Let me tell you that was a hard lesson to learn, my | | | | thought out organised plan! |
| lesson was to learn to shut up and only tell those who | | | | |