| As a teenager around year 1976 or 1977, back home | | | | school. |
| in Tehran, I was reading a novel that was about | | | | Now looking back, I do not question why we (Iranian) |
| participating events during the Russian revolution. | | | | are where we are now. I question how we would not |
| The novel was attention-grabbing and several times I | | | | be here in this crisis that we are in now. |
| came across the word Democracy. I really did not | | | | Many of us Iranian enjoy the democracy and human |
| know the meaning of that word. My curiosity | | | | rights in Western cultures we reside in. We live the |
| motivated me to look up the word in a dictionary we | | | | word and live the meaning of what democracy means |
| had in our library. I did not appreciate to skip the | | | | in the countries we live in. |
| unfamiliar word that like many other Latin words were | | | | Our history, the Iranian one, the real Persian one, is one |
| being printed in our Persian literature. | | | | of the saddest stories on earth. The rise and fall of |
| I looked up the word just because I had an emerging | | | | democracy is truly a sad story that has happened in |
| need for conceptualizing the story. I think the meaning | | | | our history numerous times. We have to analyze our |
| that I found was too vague or too broad and I tried to | | | | history from every angle, particularly from the angle of |
| put things into a context by that simple minded | | | | mental health and psychology. Rigidity in thoughts and |
| meaning of a big concept as Democracy. | | | | in feelings causes mental heath issues. How can we |
| I was not satisfied with the dictionary. I guess this word | | | | say that all the repeated and patterned attacks on |
| had been reluctantly overlooked by the system of | | | | democracy are not due to rigidity pertinent to mental |
| censure at that time or it might have been by accident | | | | health issues? |
| or because of translation errors. I remember I was | | | | We just give this hypothesis a chance and |
| thinking how come this was the first time I had seen | | | | contemplate on it. |
| this word, while I used to read books. Who knows? | | | | Mental health issues damage the actualization of |
| I asked my father what that word meant. He did not | | | | democracy. People, who lack the psychological stability, |
| like my question and he did not know the answer | | | | would not care for democracy. Now looking back I |
| either. He suggested that I do not care about that | | | | believe that we can not reach democracy if people |
| remark because that word did not meant to be for us | | | | are scared, traumatized, silenced, and domesticated. |
| Iranian. I become conscious that if my father did not | | | | People who have been excluded and ignored can not |
| have a respond to my question, it maybe due to the | | | | see the benefit of democracy. |
| fact that the word itself did not relate to our lives | | | | We are where we are historically, physically, mentally, |
| anyway, so why learns it? | | | | spiritually, and psychologically just because we have |
| For some reason I took the matter further, I took the | | | | been manipulated time after time. We have let go of |
| book to school and asked my literature teacher. I | | | | our own power because we are falling for mental |
| expected this very knowledgeable teacher to know | | | | health issues due to anger, hatred, avoidance, |
| because he knew meaning of the most rigorous | | | | ignorance, fear of rejection, and fear of failure. No |
| Persian poems. Somehow I guess I liked to show him | | | | wonder we Iranian are fragmented. No wonder we |
| my book to may be show-off to him as he was a role | | | | are where are now. |
| model to me. My teacher did not like my question | | | | Poran Poregbal |
| either, his face turned red and he advised me to forget | | | | July 29, 2008 |
| about that word and never again take that book to | | | | Vancouver, B.C. |